…has been totally crazy. Back in September I was at work and I sat down and wrote out a list of things I wanted to achieve with both this blog and my design business. It wasn’t goals, it was an actual schedule. I fleshed out products I wanted to make and things I wanted to talk about here. I sketched, I designed, and then I derailed. I only actually got to two of the things of the 7 or 8 that I had thought I’d be able to do. Ugh. Talk about feeling defeated.
What happened? Well, basically we’ve been going out of town every other week since I wrote those things down. Weddings, holidays, whatever. We’ve been there. And every time it’s taken about 6 days out of whatever I would be doing here (which basically added up to losing nearly a whole month). Now, would I trade any of these experiences for more time at home? Not really, we saw friends and family and every event was a happy occasion and it’s important to us to have those. On the other hand, it completely wreaked havoc around here. Instead of creating, I’ve been stuck on this endless treadmill of pack bags, go somewhere, come home, unpack, do laundry, repeat. You can imagine the sad state of affairs a household under such circumstances might look. I don’t consider myself a neat freak, but the clutter was making my eyes twitch like crazy.
Have you been feeling that recently too? Is it an end of the year thing? Hustle and bustle for 3 months straight and then January shows up and we’re all hiding under our electric blankets waiting for spring. (I’m totally hiding under an electric blanket right now)
I guess what I’m getting at is it’s been hard to find balance this season. The things I thought I was going to do, I didn’t do. The things I was obligated to do, I did but feel exhausted from, and then there are things that I would like to do that I can’t even think about because I am too busy on the treadmill listed above. I could not take it anymore! In fact right now, I was supposed to be traveling, and I cancelled my plans. I cancelled them even though it felt like a selfish thing to do, and even though I knew there would be people let down by my absence. You know what, I feel so much better. I feel like I’ve finally stepped off the treadmill and am getting my life (and the lives of this whole little family) back on track. We’re enjoying the holiday at home, watching Christmas shows, baking and eating too many cookies, and trying to keep the tree decorated (this one is really tough with toddlers). Even the laundry is getting put away. There are not piles of junk everywhere. There are not giant crumbs of discarded bunny crackers living in the couch!
I know I won’t get to some of things on my proposed schedule for a while, but at least now I’m taking the time to focus on the tasks at hand, build things back up one thing at a time, and take some time to reflect on this past year (which has been a great one), but also start thinking about the new year. I still have the list. I still know what needs to be done, but taking a little mental break has helped me to refocus and start chipping away again.
So I must ask, how do you cope when you end up in these busy seasons of life? Push though, drink beer, hide in a blanket? Right now, I think I just might eat a cookie and head off to bed.